Length11h 7m
About this audiobook
This is not a story about heroism.
It is a story about what happens after the applause fades, after
the retirement ceremony ends, and after a life built on order,
mission, and identity abruptly dissolves.
For two decades, I lived inside a system that told me who I
was, what I was worth, and where I belonged. The Marine
Corps gave me structure, brotherhood, and purpose. It also
gave me trauma I did not know how to name, process, or
survive once the structure was gone.
When I retired, I believed I was prepared for civilian life. I
was wrong.
What followed was a slow, often invisible collapse marked
by untreated PTSD, alcohol dependence, marital breakdown,
and a series of decisions made while operating far below my
best self. Some of those decisions were mine alone. Others
were shaped by systems that respond to trauma with
procedure rather than understanding.
This book is written in hindsight, but not with the comfort of
distance. The events recorded here still carry weight.
Audiobook details
GenreBiography and Memoir, Health and Wellness
Length11 hrs 7 mins
Narrated byListen with 1,000+ voices
FormateBook with Audio
Publish dateApr 13, 2026
LanguageEnglish
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