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Length6h 59m
About this audiobook
Two-time Book of the Year finalist, Pivoting From Blue is the raw, gut-wrenching, and often hysterical story of Skip Van Gardner, a man who endured a year in which life seemed determined to break him completely. Facing the simultaneous collision of personal upheaval, a dying parent, an Alzheimer's parent, a crisis of faith, and the terrifying phenomenon known as Psychological Death, Van Gardner found himself in a place so empty he no longer knew who he was or what he was in this world. Written with the unvarnished honesty of a man who has nothing left to lose and everything to find, this story moves between the harrowing and the absurd with startling agility. From a life-threatening Atlantic crossing to hospice hallways, courtrooms of the mind, and the strange grace of painting with a keyboard, this is a story about what happens when you stop trying to outrun the storm and choose to face it head-on.
Audiobook details
Rating★★★★★ 4.7 (62)
Includes Goodreads
GenreBiography and Memoir
Length6 hrs 59 mins
Narrated byRecorded Track
FormatAudiobook
Publish dateNov 2, 2026
LanguageEnglish
Table of contents
1Opening Credits
2Seriously Large Disclaimer Here
3Chapter 1: The Fucking Scooter Made It
4Chapter 2: Building the Perfect Storm
5Chapter 3: The Art of Dying
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6Chapter 4: Let “The Year” Begin!
7Chapter 5: Subconscious Preparation
8Chapter 6: Luck Be the Lady Blue
9Chapter 7: Male Menopause Is Real and Insane
10Chapter 8: The Dying Parent Thing
11Chapter 9: God and the Art of Walking
12Chapter 10: April Showers
13Chapter 11: Thank You, Lordy!
14Chapter 12: Panic and the Courts of Heaven
15Chapter 13: The Blooms of May
16Chapter 14: Hello Hospice!
17Chapter 15: June 26, 2025
18Chapter 16: The Grand Exit
19Chapter 17: Bob Ross Was God's Cousin
20Chapter 18: Take Me Home, Please
21Chapter 19: Death
22Chapter 20: Rum Punch, Anyone?
23Chapter 21: Painting with a Keyboard
24Chapter 22: The Logistics of Dying
25Chapter 23: Autumn
26Chapter 24: Flight of the Bumblebee
27Chapter 25: The Golden Light
28Chapter 26: His Final Gift
29Chapter 27: Operation: Free Mom
30Chapter 28: Six Days Go Fast
31About the Author
32Closing Credits
33The Song List
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