I ALREADY KNEW
HOW I CAME OUT, STOPPED SURVIVING MY LIFE AND STARTED BUILDING ITBy Josh Holcomb-BowenRecorded Track
Length58m
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I Already Knew
How I Stopped Surviving My Life and Started Building It
You already know. You’ve probably known for a while. You just don’t know what to do with it yet.
This book is for men living in that gap — between what they know and what they can say out loud. Men raised in church. Men who built a life around a story that wasn’t really theirs.
I came out at 27 after years inside conservative evangelical culture. What followed was a marriage, divorce, damaging religious therapy, and the terrifying process of telling my four kids the truth.
Then I built something real: a husband, a home, and a life lived openly in the South. When I shared it online, men started reaching out saying they finally felt seen.
Inside are 15 chapters covering the knowing, the breaking, and the rebuilding — grief, faith, family, identity, kids, therapy, and learning to live honestly.
Not a theology debate. Not self-help. Just one man telling the truth.
Audiobook details
GenreSelf-Help, Spirituality and Religion
Length58 mins
Narrated byRecorded Track
FormatAudiobook
Publish dateMay 8, 2026
LanguageEnglish
Table of contents
1Chapter 1
10Two Years in a Room That Called It Sin: Chapter 9
2Before You Were Ready to Know: Chapter 1
11The Question That Changed Everything: Chapter 10
3The Labels That Kept You Safe: Chapter 2
12The Grief Nobody Warned You About: Chapter 11
4The Life You Built Around the Gap: Chapter 3
13Telling Your Kids: Chapter 12
5The Mirror: Chapter 4
14When Family Chooses a Belief Over You: Chapter 13
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6Two Men in One Body: Chapter 5
15Rebuilding Faith on Your Own Terms: Chapter 14
7When You Reach for Something to Quiet It: Chapter 6
16Building the Life I Couldn't See: Chapter 15
8The Decisions You Watched Yourself Make: Chapter 7
17The Man You're Becoming
9The Moment It Became Real to Someone Else: Chapter 8
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