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Carried By the Cross is a memoir of fatherhood, faith, military service, war, loss, and survival—told in the author’s own voice.
From a childhood shaped by instability and the steady influence of a Colorado farmhouse, through a career as a Combat Engineer, Drill Sergeant, and combat leader in Bosnia and Iraq, this story follows the experiences that formed a soldier, a father, and a man learning how to endure what could not always be fixed.
This audiobook is personally narrated by Shawn Havens, bringing added emotion and perspective to the events as they were lived. It is not a story of easy victories or perfect endings. It is a record of service, sacrifice, broken relationships, loyalty, faith, and the determination to keep moving forward when life does not unfold the way you expected.
Carried By the Cross: A Memoir of Fatherhood, Faith, and the Cost of Service.
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GenreBiography and Memoir
Length0 mins
Narrated byRecorded Track
FormatAudiobook
Publish dateMar 30, 2023
LanguageEnglish
Table of contents
1Introduction
2Author’s Statement
3Introduction
4Chapter 1: The Farmhouse
5The Place That Stayed Still
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6The Farm When My Uncles Were Young
7Daily Life on the Farm
8Faith, Community, and Moral Order
9Early Lessons in Risk and Responsibility
10The Farm as Refuge (Foreshadowing)
11Chapter 2: Learning Distance
12The Family Split
13Leaving the Farm
14Move to Kenosha
15Return to Colorado
16Learning Distance
17Chapter 3: Into the Breach
18Entry into the Army
19Training and Emotional Suppression as Default
20Choosing and Becoming a Combat Engineer
21Institutional Language: Performance, Silence, Usefulness, Compliance
22Laying the Groundwork for Later Manipulation and Erasure
23Chapter 4: Before Iraq: Learning the System
24Arrival in Germany: Pride in a New Posting
25Life in a Post–Cold War Army
26Deployment to Bosnia: Trial by Fire (and Mines)
27The Ethics of Silence and the Power of Reputation
28Chapter 5: Fort Riley: Routine and Readiness
29New Orders and New Terrain
30Daily Rhythms on the Prairie
31Command Climate and Unit Culture
32Family on the Home Front
33The Last Quiet Day
34Chapter 6: Fort Benning: The Drill Sergeant Crucible
35New Orders: Heading South
36Drill Sergeant School: Basic All Over Again
37Personal Crisis Under Pressure
38No Mercy for Personal Pain
39The Aftermath: Duty Above All Else
40Chapter 7: Fort Benning: War at Home
41Reunion on Sand Hill
42Life as a Drill Sergeant
43Home on the Hill
44Cracks in the Foundation
45One Man Down
46The Breaking Point
47Duty First, Always
48Chapter 8: Northern Iraq: A Drill Sergeant Detachment at War
49Training Up at Fort Bliss
50FOB Bernstein: Building an Iraqi Unit
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