Trying to Kill Me: A Testimony from the Invisible War
By Vernon Snell
Length2h 21m
About this audiobook
**TRYING TO KILL ME**
*A Testimony from the Invisible War*
**By Vernon “The Black Knight” Snell**
What happens when the war you're fighting isn't visible to the world, but lives inside your mind?
Raised in Washington Heights during the turbulent decades of the War on Drugs, Vernon Snell shares a powerful testimony of survival, betrayal, addiction, ambition, family, and the psychological consequences of street life.
Through the voices of Benson, Vernon, and the Curator, this Poetic Cinema Archive blends raw memories, poetry, philosophy, and historical reflection to expose the invisible battles that shaped a generation.
From underground economies and broken loyalties to personal loss and the struggle for identity, each testimony reveals the human experience behind the headlines.
More than a memoir, this is a journey through the mind of a survivor determined to preserve the history others may never understand.
**The war was invisible. The scars were real. The testimony remains..
Audiobook details
GenreBiography and Memoir, Education and Learning
Length2 hrs 21 mins
Narrated byListen with 1,000+ voices
FormateBook with Audio
Publish dateOct 8, 2026
LanguageEnglish
Table of contents
1Title Page
2Copyright & Testimony Notice
3Archival Statement
4Dedication
5Author’s Statement
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6Introduction
7How to Read This Book
8The Three Voices of Poetic Cinema
9Hood Talk: A Survivor’s Reflection
10Testimony of the Black Knight
11A Quick Story from the Heights (Late 1980s)
1201 · The Skies Don’t Lie
1302 · How Dare You, My Love
1403 · Rough Riders Memory
1504 · I Am Me
1605 · Labels vs. Purity
1706 · Before the Screen
1807 · The Safe Haven on Cedar Avenue
1908 · The Paper Chase
2009 · Louie Love
2110 · The Partner on the Block
2211 · The Warehouse Lesson
2312 · The Man from Columbus Avenue
2413 · The Invisible War
2514 · The Birds on the Roof
2615 · The Stylish Kings of Uptown
2716 · The Three Boys from Childhood
2817 · Wrong Place, Wrong Time
2918 · Freedom Without Justice
3019 · The Scale of Justice
3120 · The Soul Has No Color
3221 · The Lobster at Jimmy’s
3322 · The Gun That Went Off First
3423 · Che from Dyckman
3524 · Toxins in the Neighborhood
36The Invisible War — Closing Reflection
37Why I Survived When So Many Didn’t
38How to Read the Final Dialogue
39The Final War in My Head
40Curator’s Note: The Final War in My Head
41Curator’s Final Statement
42Historical Context
43About the Author
44About This Poetic Cinema Edition
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Starry Ink: Nadia’s Cosmic AdventuresVernon Snell47m$2.99
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