The Silent Engine: A Memoir of a High-Functioning Addict
By Adam Meixner
Length53m
About this audiobook
This is not a story of a junkie on the street, but a raw and unflinching diary of a high-functioning addict hiding in plain sight. It is an intimate journey into a double life where every extra hour of productivity is paid for with a piece of the soul, and the biggest fear isn’t hitting rock bottom, but being discovered. For years, no one knew. Now, the diary is open.
Audiobook details
Rating★★★★★ 5.0 (1)
GenreBiography and Memoir
Length53 mins
Narrated byListen with 1,000+ voices
FormateBook with Audio
Publish dateFeb 23, 2026
LanguageEnglish
Table of contents
1Preface
9The High Price of Ease
2The First Touch of Crystal
10The Mirror
3Extra Hours
11Scars
4The Mask of Normality
12The Moment of Emptiness
5The Silent Engine
13Promises That Never Come True
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6Why Me?
14Shadows in the Periphery
7Alone in a Crowd
15Future in the Fog
8A Demon Named Sleep
16One More Day
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