There’s a moment of silence between us as we both take a sip of our coffee and let the hornet’s nest of emotions that I kicked up between us settle down a bit. It was a stupid thing to ask. I love having her in my life, and I really love how close we’ve gotten again. We seem to be falling into some of our old routines, and I like it. There are a lot of things that feel exactly the same but, there are also other things that feel entirely new and different.
So if I don’t want to fuck this all up and drive her out of my life again, I need to accept it for what it is right now and let the rest unfold naturally. Especially because I want to believe it’s headed in the right direction.
