If Only
A Memoir of Finding Beauty in a Life InterruptedBy Andrew James Dumont
Length2h 8m
About this audiobook
We all face forks in the road. The moments when life veers sharply from the plans we've carefully made. A sudden illness. A family crisis. A future quietly slipping out of reach. And in those moments, two words haunt us, laced with regret: If Only.
Andrew Dumont was a rising tech executive in New York City when a phone call on a subway platform split his life in two.
But years later, holding his newborn son, a boy who exists only because of every wrong turn, Dumont discovers something he could never have seen from inside the suffering. The life you didn't choose might be building toward the very thing you'd never give back.
If Only is a memoir about chronic illness, faith, fatherhood, and the slow transformation of regret into recognition. And about the hope that waits on the other side of the worst years of your life.
Sometimes, the road you never would have chosen leads to the only place you were meant to arrive.
Audiobook details
GenreBiography and Memoir, Health and Wellness
Length2 hrs 8 mins
Narrated byListen with 1,000+ voices
FormateBook with Audio
Publish dateJul 23, 2026
LanguageEnglish
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