I Was Loved, and This Still Hurt
An Adoptee Memoir of Gratitude, Grief, and Finding My BeginningBy Kate Triebe
Length10h 49m
About this audiobook
I Was Loved, and This Still Hurt is a powerful adoptee memoir about growing up deeply loved while still carrying the ache of missing history, unknown birth family, unanswered questions, and the lifelong need for truth.
Kate Triebe writes with tenderness about the parents who raised her and with courage about the birth family she searched for. Through memory, records, DNA, grief, discovery, and repair, she explores what adoption can feel like from the inside.
This is not a story of blame. It is not a rejection of adoptive love. It is a memoir that holds gratitude and grief together.
For adoptees, adoptive parents, birth families, siblings, professionals, and anyone touched by adoption, this book offers compassion, understanding, and a deeper way to listen.
Love matters. Truth matters too.
Audiobook details
GenreBiography and Memoir
Length10 hrs 49 mins
Narrated byListen with 1,000+ voices
FormateBook with Audio
Publish dateSep 1, 2023
LanguageEnglish
Table of contents
1Author’s Note: Truth, Memory, and Care
2A Note on Language and Care
3PART ONE: The Family That Held Me
4Chapter 1: Mum and Dad
5Chapter 2: Pipe Clay Bay
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6Chapter 3: The Wider Circle
7Chapter 4: How Love Was Spoken
8Chapter 5: The Word Adopted
9Chapter 6: Fully Included, Quietly Different
10Chapter 7: Loved, Chosen, Special, Confused, Unsure
11Chapter 8: The Girl Who Ran and Rode
12Chapter 9: Night Questions
13Chapter 10: Faces in Crowds
14Chapter 11: The Quiet Fear of Being Unwanted
15Chapter 12: When Pain Came Out Sideways
16Chapter 13: The Body Without a History
17Chapter 14: What I Learned Not to Blame Myself For
18PART TWO: Searching for My Beginning
19Chapter 15: Applying for My Beginning
20Chapter 16: Margaret Rose Riseley
21Chapter 17: The Mother I Could Not Ask
22Chapter 18: The Test That Gave Me Names
23Chapter 19: Peter Young
24Chapter 20: Vicki and Michael
25Chapter 21: The Living Thread
26Chapter 22: Southern Tasmania
27Chapter 23: Bloodlines, Faith, Work, Class
28Chapter 24: Nursing, Animals, and the Instinct to Care
29Chapter 25: What the Facts Changed
30Chapter 26: What Hurt
31Chapter 27: What Brought Relief
32Chapter 28: What Remains Unknown
33PART THREE: Accountability, Tenderness, and Truth
34Interlude: An Apology Without Excuse
35Chapter 29: Choosing Not to Let Pain Become Harm
36Chapter 30: The System and the People
37Chapter 31: What I Want to Write With Tenderness
38Chapter 32: What I Want to Write With Honesty
39Chapter 33: The Complicated Parts
40Chapter 34: What I Am Still Trying to Make Peace With
41Chapter 35: What I Fear About Writing the Truth
42Chapter 36: Restoration
43PART FOUR: Public Witness, Records, and Repair
44Chapter 37: When the State Said Sorry
45Chapter 38: The Door That Did Not Open for Us
46Chapter 39: The Paperwork of a Life
47Chapter 40: The Things People Say
48Chapter 41: What I Have Learned to Say Back
49Chapter 42: When Help Understands Adoption
50PART FIVE: Living With the Whole Story
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