I Was Loved, and This Still Hurt
An Adoptee Memoir of Gratitude, Grief, and Finding My BeginningBy Kate Triebe
Length10h 49m
About this audiobook
I Was Loved, and This Still Hurt is a powerful adoptee memoir about growing up deeply loved while still carrying the ache of missing history, unknown birth family, unanswered questions, and the lifelong need for truth.
Kate Triebe writes with tenderness about the parents who raised her and with courage about the birth family she searched for. Through memory, records, DNA, grief, discovery, and repair, she explores what adoption can feel like from the inside.
This is not a story of blame. It is not a rejection of adoptive love. It is a memoir that holds gratitude and grief together.
For adoptees, adoptive parents, birth families, siblings, professionals, and anyone touched by adoption, this book offers compassion, understanding, and a deeper way to listen.
Love matters. Truth matters too.
Audiobook details
GenreBiography and Memoir
Length10 hrs 49 mins
Narrated byListen with 1,000+ voices
FormateBook with Audio
Publish dateSep 1, 2023
LanguageEnglish
Table of contents
1Author’s Note: Truth, Memory, and Care
36Chapter 30: The System and the People
2A Note on Language and Care
37Chapter 31: What I Want to Write With Tenderness
3PART ONE: The Family That Held Me
38Chapter 32: What I Want to Write With Honesty
4Chapter 1: Mum and Dad
39Chapter 33: The Complicated Parts
5Chapter 2: Pipe Clay Bay
40Chapter 34: What I Am Still Trying to Make Peace With
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6Chapter 3: The Wider Circle
41Chapter 35: What I Fear About Writing the Truth
7Chapter 4: How Love Was Spoken
42Chapter 36: Restoration
8Chapter 5: The Word Adopted
43PART FOUR: Public Witness, Records, and Repair
9Chapter 6: Fully Included, Quietly Different
44Chapter 37: When the State Said Sorry
10Chapter 7: Loved, Chosen, Special, Confused, Unsure
45Chapter 38: The Door That Did Not Open for Us
11Chapter 8: The Girl Who Ran and Rode
46Chapter 39: The Paperwork of a Life
12Chapter 9: Night Questions
47Chapter 40: The Things People Say
13Chapter 10: Faces in Crowds
48Chapter 41: What I Have Learned to Say Back
14Chapter 11: The Quiet Fear of Being Unwanted
49Chapter 42: When Help Understands Adoption
15Chapter 12: When Pain Came Out Sideways
50PART FIVE: Living With the Whole Story
16Chapter 13: The Body Without a History
51Chapter 43: The Mirror I Did Not Have
17Chapter 14: What I Learned Not to Blame Myself For
52Chapter 44: Living Between Families
18PART TWO: Searching for My Beginning
53Chapter 45: The Birthday Question
19Chapter 15: Applying for My Beginning
54Chapter 46: The Grief People Could Not See
20Chapter 16: Margaret Rose Riseley
55Chapter 47: Where I Stand Now
21Chapter 17: The Mother I Could Not Ask
56PART SIX: Letters, Legacy, and Light
22Chapter 18: The Test That Gave Me Names
57Chapter 48: Letters I May Never Send
23Chapter 19: Peter Young
58Chapter 49: What I Will Not Let Be Lost Again
24Chapter 20: Vicki and Michael
59Chapter 50: A Lamp for Those Who Come After
25Chapter 21: The Living Thread
60BACK MATTER: Notes, Acknowledgements, and Closing Pieces
26Chapter 22: Southern Tasmania
61A Note for Adoptees Reading This
27Chapter 23: Bloodlines, Faith, Work, Class
62Source Notes for Public Claims
28Chapter 24: Nursing, Animals, and the Instinct to Care
63Acknowledgements
29Chapter 25: What the Facts Changed
64Closing Poems
30Chapter 26: What Hurt
65The Map Inside the Body
31Chapter 27: What Brought Relief
66The Family That Held Me
32Chapter 28: What Remains Unknown
67The Family My Blood Remembered
33PART THREE: Accountability, Tenderness, and Truth
68The Apology I Must Live
34Interlude: An Apology Without Excuse
69Before You Open the Door
35Chapter 29: Choosing Not to Let Pain Become Harm
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