1Introduction 5
10Small joys in the face of the grand finale - a lesson in appreciating details 49
2The First Bell - Birth and the Inevitable Roll Call 8
11Laughter before the curtain - preparations for the most important performance 54
3Death on the Swing - Lessons in Falling and Rising 12
12The applause of silence - a legacy of laughter and wisdom 59
4Dating with the awareness of the end - awkward first times 16
13The last breath and the awkward silence after the applause 64
5Career on the edge - balancing over the abyss of ambition 20
14A belated meeting with truth and uncomfortable unanswered questions 68