Length5h 42m
About this audiobook
Some stories are hard to put down even when you already know how they end.
Jodi Cowles grew up acquainted with grief — and with a faith full of contradictions she wasn't allowed to question. She found her escape in purpose: documenting the work of global organizations serving the world's most marginalized people, pouring herself into others' suffering — it almost worked.
Across dangerous assignments in forgotten corners of the world, the walls she'd built around her heart begin to crack — and everything she'd locked away comes flooding back. What follows is a reckoning: with her past, with her faith, with her own capacity to love and be loved.
And then, in a foreign country tangled in corruption and heartbreak and bureaucratic chaos, comes Joy.
This is a life lived at full intensity — layered, funny, and at times almost unbearably tense. For anyone who has ever held faith and doubt in the same hand, or loved someone in circumstances stacked against them, this is your story too.
Audiobook details
Rating★★★★★ 5.0 (21)
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GenreBiography and Memoir
Length5 hrs 42 mins
Narrated byListen with 1,000+ voices
FormateBook with Audio
Publish dateJun 12, 2026
LanguageEnglish
Table of contents
1Introduction
2317. Mahalle | The Neighborhood
2Dedication
2418. We Should Adopt
3Prologue
2519. Victory Banners
4Part 1: Then
2620. In the Harness
51. A Flannelgraph Childhood
27Part 4: Exceedingly Great Joy
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62. One Saturday Morning
2821. Joy Nur
73. A Punch to the Chest
2922. Turkish or English?
84. Prodigality
3023. Stateless
95. The Shadow of Death
3124. COVID in a Dictatorship
10Part 2: Came
3225. Take Joy My King
116. Spiritual Rehab
3326. Heavenly Battles
127. Other People’s Vows
3427. Starting Over
138. A Missing Puzzle Piece
3528. The “Last” Court Case
149. Enter the Romantic Lead, Stage Left
3629. Getting a Visa
1510. I’ve Been Everywhere, Man
3730. Fumble at the One-Yard Line
1611. Green Pastures
3831. Walking Through a Nightmare
1712. You Are a Pawn
3932. Who Do You Know in Ankara?
1813. ¡Qué Porquería! | What a Mess!
40Part 5: Consider It All Joy
19Part 3: Joy
41Epilogue: The Feast of Joy
2014. Türkiye’ye Hoş Geldiniz | Welcome to Turkey
42Acknowledgments
2115. Turkish Intensive Camp
43A Note From the Cover Designer
2216. Shootings, Bombs, Kidnappings ...
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