The Club I Never Wanted to Join
A Mother’s Story of Stillbirth, Grief, and Love That Never EndsBy Shari Beeson
Length47m
About this audiobook
At 32 weeks pregnant, Shari Beeson went in for a routine ultrasound and heard the words no parent is ready for: there was no heartbeat. In a morning that changed everything, the hope of bringing home her daughter became the unimaginable work of planning a funeral. This memoir follows the quiet, aching days after stillbirth—the delivery room, the fog between hospital and funeral, the milk with no baby to feed, the empty room waiting at home. Shari writes about the compassion of strangers, the boundaries grief demanded, and the love she carried for her daughter, Brittni Raye. She shares the tender arrival of a rainbow baby, the decision to end pregnancy journeys, and the ways she kept Brittni present in her family’s life. This is a story of loss, faith, and enduring love, written for anyone learning to hold grief and love together.
Audiobook details
GenreBiography and Memoir
Length47 mins
Narrated byListen with 1,000+ voices
FormateBook with Audio
Publish dateApr 14, 2026
LanguageEnglish
Table of contents
1Introduction
12Searching for Answers 34
2Introduction 6
13Trying Again 37
3Life Before 7
14Our Rainbow 40
4The Words No Parent Expects 9
15Raising Boys and Remembering Brittni 43
5The Waiting 12
16Distance 46
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6Delivery 16
17Nana, and the Woman Loss Made Me 48
7Meeting Brittni 20
18Family and Grief 51
8Just the Three of Us 23
19The Club I Never Wanted to Join 56
9The Days In Between 26
20Epilogue 59
10The Funeral 28
21Resources 62
11Learning to Breathe Again 31
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