Finding Hope
From Isolation to IntentionBy Justin Mayeur
Length8h 35m
About this audiobook
In November 2023, Justin Mayeur jumped from a wall drunk, shattered his ankle, and crawled two hundred yards through freezing dark while the morning runners passed close enough to touch — and none of them saw him.
That was only the beginning.
Finding Hope is the true account of the year that followed: a man alone in a fourteen-foot RV, holding long conversations with a woman who wasn't there, trying to survive a mind that had turned on him. It's a story about addiction, about an obsession he calls only Hope, and about a mother who drove 2,500 miles to bring her son home. Most of all, it's about the slow, unglamorous work of getting sober — and learning, finally, to become his own light.
No clean endings. No easy lessons. Just the truth, one day at a time.
Audiobook details
Rating★★★★★ 4.7 (16)
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GenreBiography and Memoir
Length8 hrs 35 mins
Narrated byListen with 1,000+ voices
FormateBook with Audio
Publish dateSep 21, 2025
LanguageEnglish
Table of contents
1Introduction
2Chapter 1: The Fall 9
3Chapter 2: How Did I Get Here? 23
4Chapter 3: Becoming Numb 35
5Chapter 4: When Everything Changed 43
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6Chapter 5: The Night Before 51
7Chapter 6: Alone But Not Dead 59
8Chapter 7: The Ceiling and the Silence 69
9Chapter 8: Talking to Ghosts 77
10Chapter 9: Rot 89
11Chapter 10: Let Me Out 97
12Chapter 11: The Crosswalk 105
13Chapter 12: Letters to a Stranger 113
14Chapter 13: The Mountain and the Loop 121
15Chapter 14: The Arrest 131
16Chapter 15: Going Home 139
17Chapter 16: The Last Drink 151
18Chapter 17: The First 100 (Part I) 161
19Chapter 17: The First 100 (Part II) 171
20Chapter 17: The First 100 (Part III) 183
21Chapter 17: The First 100 (Part IV) 195
22Chapter 17: The First 100 (Part V) 207
23Chapter 18: The Edge of Exposure 215
24Chapter 19: The Weight of Small Things 227
25Chapter 20: The Echo of Letting Go 239
26Chapter 21: The Space Between Versions 249
27Chapter 22: The Quiet Becoming 257
28Chapter 23: Becoming the Storyteller 267
29Chapter 24: The Mirror and the Map 277
30Chapter 25: The Road Back to Myself 285
31Chapter 26: Packing Light, Carrying Heavy 295
32Chapter 27: The Road Home 307
33Chapter 28: The Weight of Home 319
34Chapter 29: The Quiet Courage of Continuing 331
35Chapter 30: The Strongest Kind of Courage 341
36Chapter 31: The Start of the Slow Return 351
37Chapter 32: The Weight of What Remains 359
38Chapter 33: Between Holding On and Letting Go 367
39Chapter 34: The Quiet Revolution 375
40Chapter 35: The Slow Becoming 385
41Chapter 36: The Quiet Return to Living 401
42Chapter 37: The Final Stretch 409
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