Erased. Still Here.
What Ledger Couldn't CountBy Scott Cornfoot
Length4h 59m
About this audiobook
Erased. Still Here. is a creative memoir by Scott Cornfoot that explores the lasting psychological impact of institutional abuse and shame within the world of competitive figure skating. Through a hybrid narrative form, the author introduces Ledger, a personified literary device representing the "counting mind" developed to survive trauma and emotional neglect. The text vividly depicts the contrast between the artistic beauty of the sport and the clinical cruelty of a coach who used public humiliation and weight stigma as tools of control. As the narrative transitions into adulthood, it illustrates how these early lessons in endurance and erasure manifest in modern struggles with financial instability, divorce, and the search for personal identity. Ultimately, the work serves as a record of institutional silence, the redemptive power of teaching, and the resilient return of joy.
Audiobook details
GenreBiography and Memoir
Length4 hrs 59 mins
Narrated byListen with 1,000+ voices
FormateBook with Audio
Publish dateMay 3, 2026
LanguageEnglish
Table of contents
1Dedication
2Author's Note
3Act 1Anchor
41 - A Difficult Twelve Minutes
52 - Chasing the Ice
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63 - Anchor
74 - The Geometry of Grace
85 - The System
96 - That Time I Won Without Him
107 - The Pig List
118 - The Ledger Begins
129 - Hot Toronto Nights
1310 - Lawrence Road
1411 - The Goodbye Without a Name
15Act 2 - Where the Grain Still Remembers
1611 - The Return
1712 - The House That Wouldn’t Let Go
1813 -Close Enough
1914 - Charlie and the Space Between Us
20Chapter 15: The Budget Fight That Isn’t About Money
21Chapter 16: Arithmetic with Bruises
22Chapter 17: Laughter as Rebellion
23Chapter 18: Noise as Prayer
24Chapter 19: The Dresser That Spoke in Dust
25Chapter 20: A Castle with a Crooked Stripe
26Chapter 21: After the Bell, the Envelope
27Act III -
28Learning to Remain
29Chapter 22: Open, Still
30Chapter 23: SEND
31Chapter 24: The Day Ledger Blinked
32Chapter 25: Trivia Night, No Audit
33Chapter 26: The Call
34Chapter 27: What He Never Knew
35Act 4
36Going on Record
3728The Chorus That Remained
3829The Draft That Could Get Me Sued
3930The Page That Vanished
4031The Testimony That Named Everything
41Chapter 32: The Fours Practice at Nationals
42Chapter 33: What She Remembered
4334Birthday on Tour
4435The Phone Call from Los Angeles
4535 - The Call That Worked
46Chapter 36: Wedding Invite
47Act V - Joy & Closure
48Chapter 37: One Hour
49Chapter 38: Grace, Still
50Chapter 39: The Night the Ice Remembered Joy
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