BEAUTIFUL HELL
Where the life I was given ended— and the one I chose beganBy Christine Davis RossRecorded TrackLength8h 20m
About this audiobook
Beautiful Hell is an intimate memoir about faith, grief, suicide, cancer, healing, and the quiet unraveling that begins when the life you built no longer feels true.
Raised in a Mormon family, Christine learned early how to stay small, keep the peace, and become who others expected her to be. Beneath the surface lived grief, silence, perfectionism, childhood wounds, and questions she didn’t yet know how to ask.
As certainty begins to crack, Christine starts questioning everything she had been taught about faith, belonging, truth, and identity.
Years later, a cancer diagnosis becomes not just a medical crisis, but a profound reckoning with fear, mortality, intuition, and the courage to trust herself in ways she never had before.
From the mountains of Utah to the shores of Hawai‘i, Beautiful Hell traces one woman’s journey through love, loss, motherhood, spiritual awakening, and the complicated process of learning to live truthfully within her own life.
Audiobook details
GenreBiography and Memoir, Spirituality and Religion
Length8 hrs 20 mins
Narrated byRecorded Track
FormatAudiobook
Publish dateMay 12, 2026
LanguageEnglish
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